after all this time
i almost finish my study.
i’m still looking for jobs that will give me life 😀
have just read my bestfriend’s blog, seeing him with a better attitude is a pleasure. He said that he was strengthen by me, seeing me, a girl, who struggle for my own life.
Okay, we were in a relationship that i cannot explain here, he know exactly how i had my life. How i do plenty things by my own.Hard, and trust me, it’s harder to be done by a girl like me.
I might be looked as a strong and tough outside, but i’m a child inside. I need a courage, need someone “older” to hold on.
I’ve been hurt for times, heals myself on a while by myself. Pay my college fees by myself, possess my own needs by myself. See,how hard i am. But i don’t want to be seen as a hard, i want to bee seen that i enjoyed my life, the business of me, and i can courage it by myself. Doesn’t mean that i need noone, but i just try to stand withb my own.
This December, my bestfriend will have her engagement in Canada. I want to be there, see her laugh and happiness, that she finally found the one she’s been looking for. Can i?
Ngel, I will really try to be there…trust me.
A thought crosses my mind, when will I?
With these uncertainties, I don’t know when the time will come over me. But i’m sure i will be there, in that happiness, being the happiest person ever to have the man beside me.
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