dearest u

Your smile brings light into my days

The tought of you ,warms my night

To hold you in my arms ,

Even in my dreams it feels so right

Loving you

You never see the way I look into your

Eyes

You never realize the love I feel inside

Pain and sorrow that haunted me ,

Cause words I’ve left unsaid to you

Now you found someone else to love

Deep in my heart, my love won’t fade away

To hold u in my arms

Even in my dreams it feels so right loving you

*u just dont know how im going through the times without u. Feels like u need me but m not too sure, feels like in your arms but im not. Feels like gonna see u within this short time, but we;re not.How am i supposed to live without u again?Just tell me for sure if u want me to go. Am happy to see u finally settled there*

Just a farewell letter

there’s a time I think that I like you
and there’s a time I think that I don’t

I never thought that I could feel this way
knowing that you’ll gonna leave though it’s not about leaving me, really hurts me

I don’t understand how can I feel this way
I just feel and already knew that I want you to stay here nearby

I don’t know what to say to you
I don’t know how to keep having you here

I do sure you already know how I feel about you
I am not sure that you don’t like me in return

the expectations you told me when you want me to keep sharing with you and when you tell me about your everything
make me wonder and wonder

am I something for you?
do I mean for you?

I already told you I cannot let you go and have the distances between us
but you told me that you do this for your sake

those are not about me
those are not about us

I know and I do understand you have no ‘us’
I know but I just can get it

do you have to go?
you still have any hopes outside

you can reach your dream right over there
but not in the place you’re gonna be

I cannot tell you that I love you
I cannot tell you not because I dont want to but little more that I am not sure if I love you

could we have these things longer?
do you know I cried because you’re gonna leave?

don’t ever ask me why
I will never have the answer

I cannot hold you
I cannot hold you

even more I cannot love you
I am somebody else’s

dear, I am not sure that I will be with him
like I am not sure that we are destined to be together

is that true the you will looking for me when you’re here?
is that true that we will meet again someday?

dear, the time must not be like nowadays
the time may be too late for us to get together
the time must be too late
the time might be never come

will you ever ask me to be yours someday?
or it is just a thought to be dreamt?

dear, all i can say today is just ‘Wish you every luckinesses and goodnesses. See you next time’

*I’m crying while writing this, really afraid if I never see you again. Is this love? Or just n emotional feeling?*

aduu..apa kabar blog ku?Lama tak bersua

kesibukan dan ketidakinginan blog ini terpublish dimana2 bikin males posting

beberapa waktu ini gue punya kegalauan batin..ya merasa tertinggal sama temen2 lama *padahal temen deket banget alias sahabat* Jarak yang membentang seolah menggambarkan betapa jauhnya kita But finally setelah beberapa saat *tepatnya beberapa tahun* betapa leganya hatiku ternyata dia masi menganggap gue dalam kehidupannya

itu baru sahabat, belum lagi masalah keluarga yang kadang bikin gue memejamkan mata dan memalingkan muka. Kok rasanya gak sanggup menghadapi semua ini..One thing for sure, the faith is still in me, I do still believe, everything happen for HIS plans..Ada kalanya gue merasa ‘why me???’ dan for times i did not find the answers, but finally, i tried to be faithful ‘I’m the right and chosen person. Because only me who can pass it all with HIM’. Aduuu..kalian mungkin gak tau how it hurts to be me and how hard it is..tapi, again, this too shall pass..

Blom lagi masalah kerjaan, m ove to another place, do not means everything is better. Something you got, something you lose..Ada yang pernah bilang gini ke gue ‘orang seperti itu pasti ada di mana2, San’ .. errrr..’orang seperti itu’ refers to someone that some of you might know..Dannn..terereng..ya betul.Kalo dulu dia suka marah2 karena hal sepele, yang ini marah2 gak jelas, lama pula, 2 bulanan. Edan gak tuh..*kalo misal ada yang mau kursus peran antagonis, please feel free to call me’

Yang laen? Terlalu banyak siy kalo diceritain disini, mulai dari kamar mandi bocor, tetangga kos yang aneh, pembantu kos yang merit sama cowo yang lebih muda 20 taun, sampe tukang ojek yang nongkrong di depan gang. Percintaan?Baik2 saja, finally i know, he’s the rightest ever to be with me. Dia yang paling mengerti gue, dia yang paling menerima gue dan keluarga gue apa adanya *thanks, ney*

oiaa…satu lagi..tentang salah satu teman yang kepo abis *gak tau kepo?googling aja deh, males jelasinnya*

Dia adalah mantan pacar sobatnya mantan gue.Pusing? Ya pokonya gitu lah. Sejak gue ketemu, gue mendadak berteman  baik sama dia, sampe akhirnya i decide to leave Bandung for my sake. Perlahan gue menjadi Santi yang berbeda, Santi yang lebih sadar akan kehidupan, Santi yang lebih dewasa dan Santi  yang tidak bodoh lagi
Dan tentunya Santi yang sudah melupakan kesalahan masa lalunya dan tidak ingin mengulangi ato bahkan mengingatnya lagi. Tapi kok dia kayanya gak suka gitu dengan gue yang sekarang. Oke, gue bukanlah Santi yang bisa diajak nongkrong sampe tengah malem di kos orang, karena Santi akan lebih memilih tidur di rumah ato ngobrol sama mama *walopun berujung pada pertengkaran* ato online aja di rumah, ngobrol sama temen2 di ym ato msn.

Awalnya, setelah beberapa saat gue di BSD, gue cerita ke dia tentang temen2 gue disana. Dan dia tampaknya biasa aja, sampe suatu saat, dia nge add facebook temen gue yang dia gak even pernah ketemu. Omigot, mau apa siyyy..add orang yang gak kenal di facebook, kekurangan temen banget siy luuu…

Terus, dia ini selalu ingin join dengan segala kegiatan gue, ato komen di facebook tentag status gue *yang mana komennya adalah garing abis* seolah2 dia yang paling tau tentang update kehidupan gue..Entah kenapa gue merasa gak suka aja..mungkin karena dia menganggap gue masih desperately in love sama temennya itu *mantan gue yang merupakan teman baiknya* dia menunjukkan bahwa dia masih deket sama mereka2 dan beberapa acara jalan2 yang mana gue gak pernah diajak *sapa pengen juga* Aduu..udah ah, jahat banget gue ya..

IM2 not really work

Setelah beberapa lama pake IM2, gue merasa tertipuuu…

bisa gila!!! Masa dari total pemakaian 16jam 42 menit, average per connectionnya cuma 23 menit.
Edan abis kan..

Parah..

Lumayan sih, buat dapet link download

tapi cuma link nya!!!

Kalo lagi chat sama shane, dia pasati misuh2 karena koneksi gue ancurrrr…Kalo ngomong jadi gak nyambung. Selain inggris yang terbata2, message nya dia nyampenya 3 menit kemudian. Jauh banget sama di Ostrali katanya (ya iyalah, Shane.)

Mending sih dibandingin broom nya Oliv yang udah beberapa hari gak konek (Makanya ganti yang pascabayar aja liv)

Ada yang punya saran untuk mendapatkan koneksi IM2 yang ok??

Final Project

Final Project

So….this is my final project. The last thing I did before the graduation.

Not perfect, and I said this is was terrible.  I did the revision in a rush among the stacks of my jobs.

I did it imperfectly, but I do very very surprised it was not continued longer.

For anyone, everybody need a cery little explanation about ERP implementastion in a small and medium enterprise, you can see it here. Might be not help much, just use it as a recommendation.

Thank you for all parts who helped me much.

20 Things Programmers Often Say About Their Codes

 

20. That’s weird….->it’s not a big deal, could be said as a confession

19. It’s never done that before.->Man, it’s an excuse

18. It worked yesterday.->You must be lie

17. How is that possible? ->Just see and fix it!!

16. It must be a hardware problem. -> Nope!! It’s absolutely an exception of Tapestry

15. What did you type in wrong to get it to crash? -> Argh, nonsense

14. There is something funky in your data. OR It’s a data problem, not a program problem. ->This is a statement that My Team always say about every exception

13. I haven’t touched that module in weeks! ->And you shold touch it, Dude!!!

12. You must have the wrong version. -> When the last version was deployed??

11. It’s just some unlucky coincidence. -> And I’m the unlucky person to find it

10. I can’t test everything! -> It’s a wrong excuse

9. THIS can’t be the source of THAT. ->How can???

8. It works, but it hasn’t been tested. -> Oh, what a pity to be your tester???

7. Somebody must have changed my code. ->Who??

6. Did you check for a virus on your system? -> Viruses scared to my computer

5. Even though it doesn’t work, how does it feel? ->It feels like a shit

4. You can’t use that version on your system. -> And what should I use???

3. Why do you want to do it that way? -> This is the scenarios step

2. Where were you when the program blew up? -> I am flirting

And the Number One Thing Programmers Say When Their Programs Don’t Work:

1. “It works on my machine..”. -> Do not deny, man!!

Graduation Day, the real moment

tanggal 8 November kemaren akhirnya gue ikutan wisuda..

Rasanya gimana? Biasa aja, cuma seneng karena bareng ma temen2 seankatan yang tadinya sering nyuekin gue, karena gue turun derajat 1 tingkatan kali ya

Terus bokap nyokap juga udah heboh banget  gue mau wisuda, ajib lah. Gue sampe terharu liat keantusiasan mereka..Sampe kakak gue pun ikutan heboh.

Thanks GOD, thanks to my parents and brother, mereka sangat sangat appreciate banget sama kelulusan gue ini

The Best Part

Bagian yang paling gue suka adalah ketika nyanyiin lagu Indonesia Raya. Maklum, jiwa nasionalis gue emang kuat banget (huekkk!!!!)

Gue bersemangat banget selama nyanyiin Indonesia Raya dan Mengheningkan Cipta-yang entah kenapa lirik nya beda sama yang gue nyanyiin selama 12 taun sekolah-.

The F***king part

adalah ketika gue dapet ijazah gue n ternyata nilai e-business gue gak ada di dalam transkrip!!!Siyal. itu gue bikin sampe gak tidur, sampe nyusahin orang, bla bla bla..

The Happiest Part

Ketemu sama CaMer!!! dan calon ibu mertua itu ramah banget, gak kaya kemaren2

I love you, ney..

Mungkin karena udah lulus juga kali yaaa

Mungkin ini hadiah terindah buat kelulusan gue

Jalan-jalan sama Dewi

Seudah nyampe ke Serpong, gue janjian sama Dewi, yang mana kemaren dia ultah n ditinggal suaminya ke Solo )

Tadinya cuma duduk2 doang di kos gue, terus tiba2 aja gitu kami kepikiran mau ke SMS..Jalan2 lah..

Happy Birthday, wi

Pleased To Go

Artinya : mempersilakan untuk pergi.

Kurang lebih gini : Gue ga minta lu untuk pergi, tapi gue juga gak expect lu stay. Gue gak bilang gue gak sayang sama lu, tapi itu juga bukan berarti gue sayang sama lu.

Itu. Menurut gue  *yang ngerasa berbeda silakan komen*.

Jadi, klo ada yang ngomong *dalam konteks hubungan pria dan wanita* ” gue gak minta lu pergi, lu yang pergi sendiri” buat gue adalah SIYALAN. 

Kenapa? Karena artinya beda sama kalo dia ngomong “gue gak minta lu pergi, gue udah coba nahan lu, tapi lu yang tetep pergi”

Coba perhatiin kata2 yang gue bold n italic, beda kan artinya?

Itu yang MUNGKIN sedang dalam pertanyaan dalam hidup gue. Emang, dia gak minta gue untuk pergi, tapi dia juga ga nahan gue. Jadi??? Dia pleased me to go kann???

uhm, udahan ah. Ntar klo disuru ngomong langsung, mampus gue. Mana bisa????

Graduation Day..

Graduation day. Apa artinya? Secara harafiah, artinya adalah hari kelulusan. Apa itu?

Artinya adalah hari wisuda.

Pertanyaan gue, seberapa penting sih hari itu?

Jujur, i’ve been waiting for the day for these past 2 years. Tapi, saat ini gue gak mau ikutan wisuda.

Gue takut ketakuran gue, kekhawatiran gue terjadi. Apa itu?

A strictly private girlstuff pastinya. Keinginan normal dan wajar seorang cewe yang saat ini belum didapat..

Gue tau, ortu gue pengen ngeliat gue diwisuda, tapiii…alasan gue gak mau ikut pun adalah karena gak mau menyakiti mereka..trust me, mom, dad

akhirnya dikasi cuti

akhirnya gue dikasi cuti..tanggal 17 oktober

setelah gue ketawan ngambek sama hariyanto

huahuahuauha